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  • Listening to: Fol Chen
  • Reading: Werner Herzog
  • Drinking: Yerba Mate
Check out my sketchbook at the Brooklyn Art Library!

201 Richards St #16
Brooklyn, NY 11231

It's part of a permanent collection so you can go anytime. Check the website for hours:

www.arthousecoop.com/library
  • Listening to: Devandra Banhart
  • Watching: Lars Von Trier
  • Drinking: Yerba Mate
Here's a book I published for my mom's birthday of photographs that I've taken of her garden:
www.blurb.com/bookstore/detail…

You can click on the book preview to see all the pictures. I hope to publish some art books soon too!
  • Listening to: Pixies
  • Reading: Duma Key
  • Drinking: Yerba Mate
There are many things I don't know; Why I'm making artwork, what I'm making artwork about, whether or not I should even continue trying to  make a career for myself as an artist. The one thing I do know: I love figure drawing, always have and always will, and that gives me hope. I can't think of any other activity that I know with such certainty that I enjoy, and every time without fail. That I can just do without thinking for hours on end until I lose track of the time. No questions about "why" or "what for" - the purpose is always very clear, just draw what you see. The past few months I've been going to an open session once a week. In undergrad the general consensus was that this didn't count as art, and as a result, I've noticed that I've quit giving the resulting drawings much thought. In fact I often don't even look at them again. However, I think I will start posting some.
  • Reading: 7 Days in the Art World
Just got back from Europe; I traveled through England, Belgium, The Netherlands and Germany. I looked at a couple graduate schools in London and tried to visit as many museums/galleries as I could in Berlin.
I realize I didn't fully comprehend the meaning of an "international art market" until this trip. Practically all the art I came across was from artists I'm already familiar with, or if it was someone I hadn't heard of, the work looked similar enough to something I had seen in NY. At first this made me feel surprised and more knowledgeable than I thought I was, I've never considered myself to be any expert on contemporary art. In the end I felt somewhat disappointed to go across the world and not see any artwork different than what I could see at home. I suppose I should go to a non-European country if something drastically different from the United States is what I'm looking for. Still, I thought I would gain some sense of what it meant to be an American artist but perhaps these boundaries don't exist anymore.

The highlights of the trip were all unrelated to art; eating at Nocti Vagus, a restaurant "by the blind, for the blind" where you eat in pitch darkness; and taking a scooter through the dutch countryside.

I realize that for me this has always been the case, I find the most value in non-art related experiences. I question what this means for my attempt to pursue a career as an artist. It's becoming more and more difficult for me to translate meaningful experience into painting. But without even attempting to do so, my experiences feel meaningless. Probably I'm over-thinking this all.
I haven't been "working." The money earning kind of working takes up all of my time. About a month ago I started on a couple paintings larger than I've done before, but now they sit in my studio hardly touched. For some reason I can't stand to face them. There's a constant fear in the back of my mind that I might one day give up. I got rejected from all the graduate schools I applied to and a handful of residencies. This was partly a relief. I have a critique coming up next week with some gallery directors in Chelsea but I'm regretting having signed up for it. I need a new direction, I'm trying to rediscover how to make artwork for the sole purpose of enjoyment.
I've spent the holidays working on grad school essays, here's an excerpt from one of them:

"With the invention of photography, painting is no longer necessary as a form of documentation. As a result, I believe the act of painting becomes that much more substantial. Through taking the time to physically create every brush stroke of the image, it becomes a step beyond documentation, thus changing the nature of the subject."
Last night at a bar I ran into the woman who I sold these two paintings to: nicodeema.deviantart.com/art/C…
nicodeema.deviantart.com/art/C…

It was the first time I had seen her since the sale, which must have been about 2 years ago, so just to make conversation I asked her how the paintings were and if she had hung them where we decided (When I sold them to her she had asked me to come over her house and help her choose a place for them, like I've heard so many artists and their "patrons" have done in the past)

Her reply: "Do you want to know the truth? I never hung them up and I lost them! I've been looking for them for a while now but I just can't imagine where I put them. Actually, do you want to know the truth again? I haven't even looked for them! But I paid good money for those so I hope they turn up."

In hindsight I didn't even sell them for that much, I could make that much money in a few days with the job I have now.

I honestly just don't know if I can handle doing this whole artist thing or not.
  • Reading: Harper's Magazine
  • Drinking: Ginger Tea
Painting has been going slow recently...I feel like I'd much rather be concerned with making beautiful, "painterly" paintings than subject matter, but the burden of choosing what my paintings will be about is preventing me from making many paintings at all.

On top of that I don't have any heat in my studio (only a small space heater) so it's hard to gather up the will power to get out there and actually do the work. I've been doing some small sketches that don't require working in the studio,  but nothing worth uploading.

Also, I haven't had much free time from my job as a real estate photographer, which I've been doing for the past 8 months to save up money for graduate school. It's basically become full time, but I guess I can't complain since I can earn money on the days that it's too cold to paint.

I hope everyone else is doing well!
I'm at the Vermont Studio Center for the month and everything is really incredible, I've been so busy but my time here is going by way too fast!

This morning the visiting artist William Willis visited my studio and I told him I was having trouble figuring out how to "finish" my paintings because I was worried about destroying all the wonderful things that happened at this midway point.

He told me that was nothing to worry about and just to leave them for a while, that "It's like you have a friend who's missing a thumb but you appreciate them just the same."
  • Listening to: Edith Piaff
  • Reading: The Last Unicorn
I'll be showing some work tomorrow night in the East Village with the Antagonist Movement!
One night only at:

NIAGARA
112 E. Ave. A ( corner of 7 st., right next to Tompkins Square Park)
21 +, 9PM - 2AM

Take the 6 train to Astor Place, the bar is a few blocks walk from there and the gallery is located downstairs...

For more info go to: antagovision.com/antagonist-ve…

Big Art Show

Thu Jun 21, 2007, 11:43 AM
  • Listening to: The Misfits
  • Watching: Children of Men
  • Drinking: Iced Green Tea
For anyone in the (greater NY?) area, come see my most recent work + some other great artists tomorrow at The Big Art Show Poughkeepsie!

Friday, June 22nd
@ the cunneen/hackett arts center
9 vasser st
POUGHKEEPSIE NY
7 PM - 1 AM ~ $5 ~ All Ages

"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

Final Crit

Thu Apr 26, 2007, 2:33 PM
  • Listening to: Computers humming at my job
Some excerpts from my final critique at the Musuem School, final meaning not only end of the semester but end of my time here completely. I"ll be graduating in a couple weeks, moving back to my parents house, and turning my mom's gardening shed into a studio.

"I was concerned about her statement of not feeling like most of her work was finished, and not feeling like part of a community. Also about the possibility of not continuing to paint."

"I feel good about her prospects, her painting has grown a lot this year even though there is more progress to make."

"Use your doubts about art as a metaphor for a more generalized investigation of doubt."

"The underlying content is very rich- something about toxicity and the natural world, something about breath (life and death) something about above the surface and below the surface."

"Be ready for a probably rough transition."

It looks like I've been rejected from two art administration internships, and rejected from one residency in Long island, but luckily accepted to a different residency in Vermont for the month of October.
I expect Deviantart will be the sole audience for the work I'll hopefully make within the next 5 months, if I manage to keep it going. Expect different subject matter and something new completely, don't know what yet...

"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

Prints on Sale

Thu Apr 5, 2007, 6:12 PM
  • Listening to: Asobi Seksu
  • Drinking: Coffee
If anyone wants to buy some prints, let me know! They're on sale from now until mid-May (or until I graduate and don't have access to the large format digital printer) You can choose any image you want in my gallery and I can print it for you up to 40 inches wide. The cost is $6.00 a square foot plus shipping...

So for example, a 12 x 12 print would cost $6.00, 24 x 24 would cost $24.00, etc...You can estimate the price for the size you might want accordingly, or ask me to calculate it out for you...

This is cheaper than a print would cost through DA prints, and I don't plan to ever get an account, so get them now while you can!! =)

"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

YouTube

Mon Feb 26, 2007, 6:41 AM
  • Listening to: The Fall
  • Reading: Dorothy Allison
  • Drinking: Coffee
There's not much up there yet, but check back in the next couple months...

www.youtube.com/nicodeema

Maybe deviantart will have a video art category in the future.

(By the way, one of my videos was accepted into the Juried Student Annual Exhibition, but all my paintings were rejected for the 4th year in a row. All my drawings also got rejected for the 4th year in a row from the Drawing Area Show that goes on simultaneously. So much for showing my work during my time in school.)



"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

Residency

Fri Feb 9, 2007, 9:37 AM
  • Listening to: Depeche Mode
  • Reading: About Memory
Hey everyone...

I'm applying to a few different artist's residencies across the country and I'm trying to decide what to include in my portfolio. I'm applying for painting, so I guess that means most of my photographs are automatically excluded, but if you had to choose your favorite 4 images from this body of work here:

nicodeema.741.com/portfolio.ht…

which would they be?

I can include 12-20 images but only the first 4 get projected, so the rest are only looked at on the computer screen in a smaller format.

Thanks for your help!

"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

What is the purpose of a glance?

Thu Jan 25, 2007, 6:18 PM
  • Listening to: Boards of Canada
  • Reading: Sartre
  • Drinking: Coffee
I'm feeling kind of tired of art again...I went to the new ICA in Boston and it seemed absurd to be standing in these windowless rooms staring at squares of paper when the ocean was right outside.

I feel like my paintings are embarrassingly straight-forward and my photos aren't "processed" enough (scanning in a print doesn't have the same appeal of painting every single stroke of the image.)

There's so many images out there it's difficult to figure out why you're making your own, sometimes I feel like I can do little more than only glance at even my favorite artist's work before something else comes into the picture.

"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham

Daily Deviation

Mon Oct 30, 2006, 7:21 PM
  • Listening to: Coco Rosie
  • Reading: Subject, Society and Culture - Roy Boyne
  • Drinking: Mint Tea
I guess it's finally my turn to write one of those typical journal entries that goes "Thanks everyone for all of the comments + favorites, I was so surprised to get a DD!"
Although it's funny because I've reworked the "Dead Goldfish- In progress" painting so much that it basically doesn't even exist anymore, I guess I should repost the new version soon...but I am seeing some parts of it now that maybe I shouldn't have changed, so I am glad everyone liked the original version and that I have a record of it...

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"Art tells us nothing about the world that we cannot find elsewhere and more reliably." -Morse Peckham
The Big Art Show on June 3rd went extremely well, so I'm going to be showing work in Brooklyn again on July 1st and August 5th!

July 1st:
Laila Lounge
113 N-7
Brooklyn, NY 11211

and on August 5th:

Sputnik
262 Taaffe Place
BROOKLYN, NY 11205

bigartshow.com/

Once again there will be bands, films, and a DJ. The doors open at 7 PM...hope to see some of you there!
  • Listening to: Sonic Youth- Incinerate
  • Reading: Invisible Cities
  • Watching: Short Films of David Lynch
Hey everyone,

For anyone who will be in the New York area, I'll be showing work at the Big Art Show in Brooklyn on June 3rd!

Sputnik
262 Taaffe Place
BROOKLYN, NY 11205

7 PM- 2 AM

The only thing is you have to be 21 to get in, from what I can tell the venue is normally a bar and performance center when events like this arn't going on..

There will be films, performaces, and a whole bunch of visual artists...

Hopefully I'll see some of you there...and for anyone who wants to show work, I think there might still be some space left available so you should look into it... www.bigartshow.com
  • Listening to: Ani Difranco- What if no one's watching
  • Reading: The Time Travler's Wife
I have a couple pieces of work up in the current issue of Filtered Magazine.

I think it would be fun to make an art webzine, maybe if I fail as an artist I can go into curatorial work...
I've been considering doing this for a while now, would anyone around here be interested in collaborating with me on this sort of project? I'd like to make a website that included writing and articles along with images...
  • Listening to: The Doors
  • Reading: Abel Sanchez- Miguel de Unamuno